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Three Day Curse

Thursday, February 27, 2020,
I woke this morning at 4:25AM and, almost, went immediately back to bed.

I don't know what it is about the third day of a series in my practice but I, without explanation, feel dull, pointless, and purposeless.  It's not a "depressed" feeling by any means, but it's a feeling of, "my mat doesn't bring my anything good and there's no point in going to it again as I'm feeling dull"; none of that is true, of course.

I believe that, when I began this blog in November of 2016 (yes, really), I was a firm believer in how feelings really shouldn't dictate what you do.  I was, and still am, a believer that far too much emphasis is put onto feelings; a feeling comes and goes without reason, cause, or explanation, and one of the strengths and beauties of discipline is that, regardless of your feelings, discipline puts you back at something and makes you feel good about yourself when you follow through with it.

It's 5:47AM as I type this, so I'm a bit behind schedule.  Time to practice.....

Thursday, February 27, 2020 (Part II),
Great practice.

No time to post a robust update about my time on my mat.  Suffice to say, I'm happy I took the time.

Namaste!

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